pemikiran ini berlaku sebelum saya tidur kira-kira selepas asar tadi.
saya adalah antara manusia yang mengalami kesukaran untuk tidur. maka sebelum tidur saya akan menghabiskan masa dengan berfikir apa yang saya lihat dan dengar sebelum saya melelapkan mata.
saya memikirkan tahap kreadibiliti mahasiswa/i UMS selepas graduat nanti. perkara ini timbul apabila terkenang perbualan saya dengan rakan-rakan yang lain malam semalam. rungutan yang keluar dari mulut mereka lantaran subjek yang diambil memerlukan kerja amali makmal menjadi subjek teori di atas kertas semata. perkara ini terjadi akibat kekurangan peralatan di dalam makmal di UMS ini.
perkara ini mengheret saya memikirkan apa yang pernah pensyarah saya katakan. guru lepasan UMS tidak mampu bersaing di dunia sebenar. terfikir sejenak merenung apakah aku sudah bersedia menghadapi alam pekerjaan sebenar. mendengar cabaran berunsurkan penghinaan itu membuat bakal-bakal guru kurang motivasi mendidik. benarkah? tepuk dada tanya selera.
akibat fikiran yang semakin bercelaru, saya sempat memikirkan usaha pihak UMS untuk menguatkuasakan peraturan pakaian pelajar. perkara pertama yang terlintas di minda ialah perpustakaan. perpustakaan UMS adalah tempat yang taboo bagi mereka yang tidak menggemari cara pemakaian yang sempurna. tapi timbul persoalan di kepala saya apabila UMS tidak mempunyai kaedah pengukuran yang sempurna dalam menilai sejauh mana kesempurnaan pemakaian seorang pelajar. ingin saya bawa senario di mana seorang pelajar lelaki yang tidak memakai tali leher dihalang untuk memasuki perpustakaan. katanya pemakaian formal lelaki adalah wajib untuk memakai tali leher. malangnya apabila saya melihat pemakaian wanita yang dilepaskan masuk, saya mula terfikir apakah wujud diskriminasi gender dalam menilai keformalan pemakaian pelajar ini. timbul lawak apabila ada pelajar lelaki yang bekata lebih baik saya pakai baju perempuan senang masuk. yang terbaru saya lihat siang tadi apabila saya lihat staff perpustakaan sendiri tidak memakai tali leher. apa rasionalnya pelajar lelaki dihalang memasuki perpustakaan andai staff tidak mengikut peraturan yang sama. adakah peraturan ini hanya 'menjadi auranya' kepada mahasiswa semata.fikirkan...
tidak lama selepas saya berfikir rasional perkara ini saya pun terlelap.
Monday, September 15, 2008
Sunday, September 14, 2008
POLITIK TANAH AIR
Teringin saya ingin memberi pandangan peribadi berkaitan politik tanah air. Walau pun terdapat rakan-rakan yang menyatakan bahawa saya hamper diracuni oleh pembangkang. Saya tidak menyatakan sokongan saya terhadap pembangkang. Saya bersifat neutral yang sudah mula condong sedikit ke arah kiri.
Kita soroti semakin huru hara pentadbiran negara saya lihat. Bagaimana kecundangnya BN untuk mempertahankan majority mudah dalam pilihan raya Mac lalu. Bermula detik itu pentadbiran di bawah pimpinan PM semakin kelam kabut. Pelbagai isu timbul. Saya tidak ingin menyentuh hal ini.
Kita tinjau pula suasana hari ini. ISA menjadi isu hangat. Mungkin agak keterlaluan ISA ini. Saya agak tidak bersetuju penggunaan ISA ini. Akan tetapi dari sudut pihak kerajaan mungkin perkara ini bertujuan untuk mengawal keadaan yg sudah berterabur ke
Isu penahanan Teressa Kok dan dua orang lain saya rasakan tidak wajar bagi negara demokrasi. Akan tetapi, dari sudut pandangan saya, Teressa Kok agak berlaku kurang ajar apabila mempersoalkan papan tanda dengan tulisan jawi
(xtau nak tulis pa da.lu pikir la sendiri)
Saturday, September 13, 2008
Friday, September 12, 2008
nite of mistakes...
its funny in the class last nite...
seems evryone make mistake...
its start when we ask to discuss task given...
fanella said sumting about a girl...she wanna said that girl always speaking English where eve she go...fanella said speaking-peaking...sounds funny...then nikita wanna said 'work'...word came from her mouth 'walk'lol'...after lidwina present our work, Kak Nik(mcm mesra ckit) ask about similarity(i think so), then nikita said similiar...we laugh...
hehehe...great time with them...but still less person in our group...ibrahim didnt join us last nite...
he make jokes also...partner in crime ibrahim, wan(look at the post b4 if wanna know about wan) absent last nite...if he there last nite, class gonna be crazy...hahaha
ok thats all...
tired typing...
seems evryone make mistake...
its start when we ask to discuss task given...
fanella said sumting about a girl...she wanna said that girl always speaking English where eve she go...fanella said speaking-peaking...sounds funny...then nikita wanna said 'work'...word came from her mouth 'walk'lol'...after lidwina present our work, Kak Nik(mcm mesra ckit) ask about similarity(i think so), then nikita said similiar...we laugh...
hehehe...great time with them...but still less person in our group...ibrahim didnt join us last nite...
he make jokes also...partner in crime ibrahim, wan(look at the post b4 if wanna know about wan) absent last nite...if he there last nite, class gonna be crazy...hahaha
ok thats all...
tired typing...
Thursday, September 4, 2008
i am so sorry
sher...i am so sorry...
what a damn feeling...i hate when i am feeling sad...its hurt...i remember her...she's nice...but i don't know...we are not close friend...we are just friend...just a course mate at all...nothing more...but seems i am too sad...
i am very sorry sher...if you are here now, you will know how TESLian really loving you...
Rest In Peace Sherliana...TESLian will always miss u...
what a damn feeling...i hate when i am feeling sad...its hurt...i remember her...she's nice...but i don't know...we are not close friend...we are just friend...just a course mate at all...nothing more...but seems i am too sad...
i am very sorry sher...if you are here now, you will know how TESLian really loving you...
Rest In Peace Sherliana...TESLian will always miss u...
Sunday, August 31, 2008
KEMERDEKAAN DAN HARI INI
KALAU SELALUNYA POST SAYA DALAM BAHASA INGGERIS, KALI NI SAYA MENGGUNAKAN BAHASA MELAYU BAGI MENGHORMATI HARI KEMERDEKAAN.
bermulanya sambutan kemerdekaan peringkat ums saya agak begitu sibuk.belum pun lepas penat lelah saya untuk pesta konvo, saya turut serta dalam pementasan puisidrama untuk festival seni kemerdekaan.latihan untuk paman doblang ini bermula sewaktu pesta konvo.memang agak memenatkan tapi saya amt menyayangi cerita ini.pada tarikh untuk pementasan, pada waktu siangnya saya baru dikejutkan bahawa saya yang juga salah seorang 'performer' akan menjadi MC.dengan selambanya pengarah program menyatakan bahawa teks MC disediakan.lega saya pada mulanya.tapi apabila saya baca teks tersebut, saya sedari rakan-rakan saya yang menganjurkan festival ini mempunyai kelemahan dari segi protokol.kelam kabut saya buatnya.dan yang menyakitkan, selepas program selesai dengan selambanya sekali lagi pengarah tu menyatakan saya yang hampir menghancurkan program.sakit hati saya pada waktu tersebut.inilah yang sering berlaku bagaimana orang yang minta tolong lupa yang mereka tu sebenarnya minta tolong.
selesai saja festival seni berkenaan,saya terlibat pula untuk program seterusnya pada keesokan harinya.pertandingan nyanyian peringkat ipt sabah.bermula dengan saringan peringkat ums.saya terlibat secara langsung dengan program ini.saya sukarela menjadi MC dan saya juga merupakan timbalan pengarah program ini.minta maaf kepada semua ajk kerana saya kurang memberikan komitmen pada peringkat awal program.tapi saya sedaya upaya saya membantu pada hari kejadian.keesokan malamnya peringkat akhir berlangsung, saya boleh katakan agak berjaya dengan bantuan pelbagai pihak.
saya berehat sehari.
pada jumaat pula saya kembali sibuk.saya tertanya-tanya adakah saya ajk induk sambutan kemerdekaan?bayangkan bagaimana saya terpaksa menyediakan latar belakang tu fuad.sedangkan ajk yang sepatutnya tidak bekerja.kemudian saya yang terkejar-kejar mereka macam saya pula yang terhegeh-hegeh.saya ajk kah?saya bukan berkira sangat tapi mereka adalah yang minta tolong.lupakah mereka yang mereka minta tolong.pelik.malam pula saya terlibat dalam pendeklamasian puisi di program malam penghayatan kemerdekaan.saya ketika itu bersama-sama bang maily dan encik puad.betapa saya ini dibaling ke sana sini bila persembahan saya tidak menentu.saya agak terhina.hampir saya meninggalkan program tersebut.agak beruntung apabila felo penyelaras sendiri berjumpa saya meminta maaf.saya teruskan juga membaca puisi.kemaafan saya pohon daripada felo berkenaan.
semalam merupakan sambutan malam kemerdekaan.saya dan dua org rakan saya menjadi MC persembahan.betapa saya agak terkejut kerana perkara ini di luar jangkaan.pukul 7 bermula, kami dimaklumkan pukul 4.saya terima sebagai cabaran.malangnya malam semalam kami menjadi MC terkawal kerana kekangan masa.yang menjadi persoalan kenapa kami dilarang bercakap lama sedangkan pada waktu itu teknikal sedang menyediakan dan menyusun mikrofon untuk penyanyi koir?tapi sudah berlalu.biarkan...
semoga kemerdekaan ini membawa seribu satu makna buat kalian...
bermulanya sambutan kemerdekaan peringkat ums saya agak begitu sibuk.belum pun lepas penat lelah saya untuk pesta konvo, saya turut serta dalam pementasan puisidrama untuk festival seni kemerdekaan.latihan untuk paman doblang ini bermula sewaktu pesta konvo.memang agak memenatkan tapi saya amt menyayangi cerita ini.pada tarikh untuk pementasan, pada waktu siangnya saya baru dikejutkan bahawa saya yang juga salah seorang 'performer' akan menjadi MC.dengan selambanya pengarah program menyatakan bahawa teks MC disediakan.lega saya pada mulanya.tapi apabila saya baca teks tersebut, saya sedari rakan-rakan saya yang menganjurkan festival ini mempunyai kelemahan dari segi protokol.kelam kabut saya buatnya.dan yang menyakitkan, selepas program selesai dengan selambanya sekali lagi pengarah tu menyatakan saya yang hampir menghancurkan program.sakit hati saya pada waktu tersebut.inilah yang sering berlaku bagaimana orang yang minta tolong lupa yang mereka tu sebenarnya minta tolong.
selesai saja festival seni berkenaan,saya terlibat pula untuk program seterusnya pada keesokan harinya.pertandingan nyanyian peringkat ipt sabah.bermula dengan saringan peringkat ums.saya terlibat secara langsung dengan program ini.saya sukarela menjadi MC dan saya juga merupakan timbalan pengarah program ini.minta maaf kepada semua ajk kerana saya kurang memberikan komitmen pada peringkat awal program.tapi saya sedaya upaya saya membantu pada hari kejadian.keesokan malamnya peringkat akhir berlangsung, saya boleh katakan agak berjaya dengan bantuan pelbagai pihak.
saya berehat sehari.
pada jumaat pula saya kembali sibuk.saya tertanya-tanya adakah saya ajk induk sambutan kemerdekaan?bayangkan bagaimana saya terpaksa menyediakan latar belakang tu fuad.sedangkan ajk yang sepatutnya tidak bekerja.kemudian saya yang terkejar-kejar mereka macam saya pula yang terhegeh-hegeh.saya ajk kah?saya bukan berkira sangat tapi mereka adalah yang minta tolong.lupakah mereka yang mereka minta tolong.pelik.malam pula saya terlibat dalam pendeklamasian puisi di program malam penghayatan kemerdekaan.saya ketika itu bersama-sama bang maily dan encik puad.betapa saya ini dibaling ke sana sini bila persembahan saya tidak menentu.saya agak terhina.hampir saya meninggalkan program tersebut.agak beruntung apabila felo penyelaras sendiri berjumpa saya meminta maaf.saya teruskan juga membaca puisi.kemaafan saya pohon daripada felo berkenaan.
semalam merupakan sambutan malam kemerdekaan.saya dan dua org rakan saya menjadi MC persembahan.betapa saya agak terkejut kerana perkara ini di luar jangkaan.pukul 7 bermula, kami dimaklumkan pukul 4.saya terima sebagai cabaran.malangnya malam semalam kami menjadi MC terkawal kerana kekangan masa.yang menjadi persoalan kenapa kami dilarang bercakap lama sedangkan pada waktu itu teknikal sedang menyediakan dan menyusun mikrofon untuk penyanyi koir?tapi sudah berlalu.biarkan...
semoga kemerdekaan ini membawa seribu satu makna buat kalian...
Wednesday, August 27, 2008
Am I Too Busy?
Am I Too Busy? Question always running in my head...
busy?exhausted?
MC?
Shame?
What the?
busy?exhausted?
MC?
Shame?
What the?
Saturday, August 23, 2008
SICK
I HATE WHEN I AM FEELING SICK...
FEELING SICK HERE AND THERE...COUGH...FLU...
CANT CONTROL MY MIND...
MY LOVER HAVE PROBLEM...
CANT HELP IT...
FEELING GUILTY...
DAMN...
FEELING SICK HERE AND THERE...COUGH...FLU...
CANT CONTROL MY MIND...
MY LOVER HAVE PROBLEM...
CANT HELP IT...
FEELING GUILTY...
DAMN...
Sunday, August 17, 2008
POST TO EVERYONE
I HAVE NEVER BEEN SHOW PRECIOUS PEOPLE IN MY LIFE
.
Fariz. Good friend in need.
Yao. Man without fear.
From Left :
Clay. Woman with happiness.
Lidwina. Good with craziness.
Nancy. Girl with braveness
Nikita. Laughter with cheerfulness.
Comot. Naughty with honest.
Fanella. Help me out when I'm stuck in study.
Wan. Man won't kill you.
Faisal. Unpredictable but reliable.
Pijul. Brother won't leave you.
WAIT FOR NEXT POST.
.
Fariz. Good friend in need.
Yao. Man without fear.
From Left :Clay. Woman with happiness.
Lidwina. Good with craziness.
Nancy. Girl with braveness
Nikita. Laughter with cheerfulness.
Comot. Naughty with honest.
Fanella. Help me out when I'm stuck in study.
Wan. Man won't kill you.
Faisal. Unpredictable but reliable.
Pijul. Brother won't leave you.WAIT FOR NEXT POST.
Friday, August 15, 2008
WHAT A BAD DAY!!!
challenging my patient...
i start my day with feeling weak. yesterday i donate my blood. i am feeling weak in the morning. i skip 2 classes today. my morning lecture and 1 tutorial... i fully wake up at 12 something...i take my bath then i went to school...i thought my class 2 o'clock...actually 3 o'clock...then went to library...
3 o'clock my class start...
4 o'clock training...
till 9-10...
then continue 'paman doblang'...
really tired and exhausted....
when the time to go back, i quarreled with one of the ajk pesta kenyalang...very rude guy...
nsib sabar msih ada...
but remember...if you make problem with me again...you will know who i am here...
please don't be rude to me when i am tired...
i don't want the word p*k1m#k going out from my mouth again. and i don't want to talk with my hand and leg...
what a bad day...
i start my day with feeling weak. yesterday i donate my blood. i am feeling weak in the morning. i skip 2 classes today. my morning lecture and 1 tutorial... i fully wake up at 12 something...i take my bath then i went to school...i thought my class 2 o'clock...actually 3 o'clock...then went to library...
3 o'clock my class start...
4 o'clock training...
till 9-10...
then continue 'paman doblang'...
really tired and exhausted....
when the time to go back, i quarreled with one of the ajk pesta kenyalang...very rude guy...
nsib sabar msih ada...
but remember...if you make problem with me again...you will know who i am here...
please don't be rude to me when i am tired...
i don't want the word p*k1m#k going out from my mouth again. and i don't want to talk with my hand and leg...
what a bad day...
Thursday, August 14, 2008
AKU
WHAT I HAVE DONE TODAY.
last night i sleep early than usual time i sleep. round 2 o'clock i already sleep.
morning.
i went to the TESL methodology class. quite fun actually. but i hate literature. start from 9 till 11. quite a long time suffering in the class. 11 o'clock i went to library. they have donation blood there. i make decision donate my blood.
noon.
my group and i make a discussion about our assignment an dour proposal. round 1.30 taking lunch. then 2-4 literature and language learning. 2 literature class per day... how suffering i am... but in this quite enjoyable. we are doing some acting based on a short story. i am death. my character called as death...
evening.
after literature class, we have to rush going to the DKP4 for asas dan amalan pedagogi. boring class. i fall asleep in that class. tired after donating blood. after finishing the class, i went to recital hall...
nite.
how tired i am.
exhausted.
don't have mood.
bye
last night i sleep early than usual time i sleep. round 2 o'clock i already sleep.
morning.
i went to the TESL methodology class. quite fun actually. but i hate literature. start from 9 till 11. quite a long time suffering in the class. 11 o'clock i went to library. they have donation blood there. i make decision donate my blood.
noon.
my group and i make a discussion about our assignment an dour proposal. round 1.30 taking lunch. then 2-4 literature and language learning. 2 literature class per day... how suffering i am... but in this quite enjoyable. we are doing some acting based on a short story. i am death. my character called as death...
evening.
after literature class, we have to rush going to the DKP4 for asas dan amalan pedagogi. boring class. i fall asleep in that class. tired after donating blood. after finishing the class, i went to recital hall...
nite.
how tired i am.
exhausted.
don't have mood.
bye
Tuesday, August 12, 2008
'KESAH KAMI'
MUNGKIN AKU TAK PUNYA APA MASALAH. TAPI DUNIAKU JADI TERBALIK. AKU SIHAT.
like always. i am not sleeping yet. when i am here in the college, my sleep schedule like going upside down. but its fine because i am still healthy like always.
i create new blog. i create new blog because i want to share my writing with my soul partner. i name it 'KESAH KAMI'. but i did not publish any post yet. still do not have idea for that. may be tonight if i am not busy.
i think this week will make me feeling exhausted. i think so. next week convocation. that's mean, our performance will be held next week. our preview the day after tomorrow.
ok. that is all for now. see you then.
like always. i am not sleeping yet. when i am here in the college, my sleep schedule like going upside down. but its fine because i am still healthy like always.
i create new blog. i create new blog because i want to share my writing with my soul partner. i name it 'KESAH KAMI'. but i did not publish any post yet. still do not have idea for that. may be tonight if i am not busy.
i think this week will make me feeling exhausted. i think so. next week convocation. that's mean, our performance will be held next week. our preview the day after tomorrow.
ok. that is all for now. see you then.
Sunday, August 10, 2008
Karnival Makanan SSMP
Closing Nite with Special Performance from Hujan
after updating my entry before, my brain cannot stop thinking what reaction would campus students have when Hujan perform.
many of them really happy with that. even i know there are some order from the representative to ask student not to support the closing nite. they ask that because of the special performance from Hujan. they said its hedonism. i am really confused. after reading what kak len says, now i understand why this thing happen. they actually good person and want everyone to be like them. as we know, people are not the same bro. i did not know whether they are so good or they are only act like good.
Hujan... i heard story from the organizer that, Hujan actually feel the representative looking down at them. look like they are some kind of bad person which really like hedonism. they have been asked by representative to wear coat or blazer in their performance. its look weird when indie band perform with coat. so they only wear formal shirt with jeans. still looking good in my eyes.
Hujan walking enter the stage by some pray. i do not know either Noh pray with full of heart or not. but i think they have their own attitude. keep going like that.
to all the representative who have shouting "no hedonism", we are supporting you. but do not look so stupid when you know you are making misinterpretation of that.
after updating my entry before, my brain cannot stop thinking what reaction would campus students have when Hujan perform.
many of them really happy with that. even i know there are some order from the representative to ask student not to support the closing nite. they ask that because of the special performance from Hujan. they said its hedonism. i am really confused. after reading what kak len says, now i understand why this thing happen. they actually good person and want everyone to be like them. as we know, people are not the same bro. i did not know whether they are so good or they are only act like good.
Hujan... i heard story from the organizer that, Hujan actually feel the representative looking down at them. look like they are some kind of bad person which really like hedonism. they have been asked by representative to wear coat or blazer in their performance. its look weird when indie band perform with coat. so they only wear formal shirt with jeans. still looking good in my eyes.
Hujan walking enter the stage by some pray. i do not know either Noh pray with full of heart or not. but i think they have their own attitude. keep going like that.
to all the representative who have shouting "no hedonism", we are supporting you. but do not look so stupid when you know you are making misinterpretation of that.
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