Tabi'i

Maka tertonggenglah punggung
Menunjuk kebiadapan sifatmu
Menerima untuk disodomi dengan cerita-cerita karutnya
Aku atau kaukah yang suka dengan sodomi ini?
Atau munafiknya rasamu kerana ditutup oleh dunia penuh harta?
Lalu memalingkan muka dari ghairah sebenar
Untuk terus mencium tengik busuknya dubur itu.

TERPAKSA BERALAH

TERPAKSA BERALAH

Benang basah itu tegak berdiri
Ya! Tegak nan kukuh
Biar pun masih mengalir air membasahi
Kemustahilan yang diterima
Kadang tanpa usul periksa
Kadang hanya untuk perintah dituruti

Bayang tangan memegang
Hujung atas benang basah
Ya! Tegak nan kukuh
Biar jelas ditipu
Kepincangan jujur yang diterima
Untuk mengampu harta
Dan macam ada yang terpaksa mengiya
Walau cuba berkata semua itu dusta
Tapi terpaksa beralah
Kerana dunia masih mengamal peraturan rimba.

Takut

Apakah akan terus hilang

Atau sebenarnya sebentar kelam

Keliru dengan sebuah kejadian

Mencari keinsafan yang terbang

Kata taubat yang  diperkemaskan

Tuhan

Aku jujur takut dengan kematian

Pandangan burung

terbang tidak pergi
berpusing di langit duniawi
menanti hujan
Mensuci darah di bulu merpati
agar putih kembali

Merpati Putih Terbang Lagi

Jatuh melayang ke tengah padang kuning

Melihat kebanjiran manusia yang memekik

Melaung menuntut suci bersihnya pemilihan

Sempat kulihat sepak terajang

Pekik lolongan

Simpati cuba ku hulur

Tapi pandangan hanya  melihat makhluk terkinja di atas kenderaan

Banjir manusia cuba memijak

Terpercik darah bertabur membasah bulu putih

Bertempiar lari seperti kiamat hari ini

Dari sayup jerit

Dari perit pekik

Ku betulkan sayap putih berdarah

Kerana akulah merpati itu

Merpati Putih Terbang Lagi

Di awan memutih melihat manusia.

Dunia Politik dan Kekotorannya

Kisah adik beradik yang suka sangat bermain tanah di luar rumah. Masuk rumah kotorlah baju.

Ibu adik beradik tu pun cakap "Jangan main tanah lagi. Tanah tu kotor,"

Adik beradik pun terima nasihat tu.

Bertahun lamanya anak ni pn dewasa. Bila dia perhatikan dunia politik sama macam peristiwa masa kecil. Kotor.

Adik cakap dengan abang "Dunia politik ni sama macam peristiwa kita main tanah kan bang? Kotor."

Abang yang lebih matang membalas, "Memang sama dik tapi tafsiran berbeza. Siapa cakap tanah tu kotor? Kalau kotor, kenapa digunakan untuk menyucikan najis?Yang kotor tu orang yang main tanah."

Love is all around

Funny. I start to write back here. It remember me my past uni life. I don't know. I just want to talk. But to who? I love my fiancé Serious.

1. I don't know whether this is real me or not. I start to ignore my work.
2. Why students have their own students counsellor but teacher have to go to the JPN if teacher want to meet the counsellor?
3. I just want to use vulgar words here and there.
4. I need her.

Stuck

Shall we continue about the 'hometown' issue? I feel it back at the university era. I never feel I want to go back to my hometown. Really. I just feel like that.

1. I start losing purpose going back when my mum passed away. Simple like that.
2. I try to find a very good reason to go back. Siblings, friends and memories. Some of the reason.
3. I just spending all my time hanging out. It is not because I hate my home. But  something just stuck inside. Blow it. I just can't.
4. Unfinished business.

BALIK KAMPUNG

As time passing by, it has been around 16 months working as a teacher.

Major issue tonight, almost all of my colleagues mumbling about their hometown. They counting days going back to their kampung. Aku rilek.

Bukan aku tiada kampung halaman. Tapi ada satu perasaan hilang. Aku balik atau tidak macam aku ok saja. It has been a long time.

I just need rest from all the things going on inside me.

BERSIH 3.0

BERSIH 3.0

There are so many people here will label me as Opposition Fan. But I'm not. I am truly an observer but yes. My opinion will bias to the opposition side.

My hobby is reading. Its start in secondary school. I read a lot about history. Something crossing my mind. How come a government having so many good people. And they are too fucking good. And when there's opposition, they will be evil far more evil than devil. Here I start to think, how stupid the government creating this damn story?

BERSIH. Its good. It doesn't even matter it is Ambiga idea. What far more important is the aim of it. The question, who start the provocation? And is it from the  BERSIH participant?

My dear Government. Could you please explain to us in a good manner? At least lie with pride. Don't say stupid things.

1. PTPTN. When opposition said they want to 'MANSUHKAN PTPTN', you tell people that opposition is stupid. Yes you can said it. But please don't explain to us about so many stupid things and avoid it. If you agree to cut the admin fees, you got back your voters stupid!

2. When you said you help people with BRM1M, come on. Its just 500.